2016 has been an interesting year for me. It was far better than the other few years before. It was full of untapped potential. That is probably the most annoyingly noteworthy thought about 2016: the amount of greatness afforded to me that I did not use. Even though there have been moments of frustration and wasted chances-as well as wasted resources, (time, energy, mental space, and money), there have also been milestones and life changing events to take place. I’m grateful for that.
This year I learned a lot about myself as well as a lot of lessons. I took writing in my journal to another level and the results were amazing. I noticed weaknesses that I did not know that I had. I realized how some of my weaknesses were related. I was revisited by “giants” in my life that I had not previously beheaded. I evaluated and reevaluated friendship, kinship, and love. I developed a new theory: the reason the devil doesn’t show you a way out of his traps is because he knows God warned against it in the first place. Yet, the biggest lesson that I learned was how seasons and cycles are not synonyms.
Sure, seasons are a part of a cycle but they in and of themselves are not cycles. A season has its time of activity before there is a transition into another time of new activity. A season begins changing and preparing the moment it begins. A cycle can occur during different seasons but that does not make it a season. There were things in my life like repeated [failed] tests or self-inflicted opposition that I misinterpreted as seasons. These were cycles because I was not putting things to death; I rocked them to sleep until I wanted them re-awakened. How foolish! Because I am officially hip to what I’ve been doing wrong. Some things have to change.
I never wanted to be the “new year, new me” type, but…follow me. December 31, 1862 the slaves were on edge. The next matter of hours and moments were monumental for them. Every thing that they knew about their lives would be changing. I’m sure it was exciting but what about the other emotions they may have been feeling? Nervous. Perhaps, scared. Curious. Grateful. Skeptical. Maybe a few were in disbelief. This countdown was not just a joyful invitation into a New Year. It was a countdown to freedom. Freedom to liberties like reading, travel, the right to choices-even the right to say “no,” freedom from beatings and breeding, and a slew of other things.
That is what this countdown to 2017 is like for me. A joyful invitation to freedom from cycles and a launch into seasons with progress. Similar to how I suppose the slaves must have felt, I am nervous, sometimes scared or skeptical, curious, and excited. Truthfully, fear and skepticism, would have me stay where I am. There are things that I can point out and say well at least on this plantation I know I have this or that, but there’s land and rights for miles and miles past my limited vision. I choose freedom. Join me.